Years ago when I was young and a perpetual student of many subjects, I stumbled on an idea that what made anything special, such as a great work of art, fine writing, a beautiful song, or even just a really tastey dish of food, was that it ended up being something more than what the person who created it initially strived for or expected. Or a fancier way to say that is the works of art start to transcend the artist. Or, the artist is now channeling a greater creativity than even they necessarily understand, intend, or fully conceive of consciously. Now maybe that way of thinking about a craft isn't always true, but it sounds to me like you are on the right track, if your book is meeting or even exceeding what you were aiming at. So that sounds wonderful!
Years ago when I was young and a perpetual student of many subjects, I stumbled on an idea that what made anything special, such as a great work of art, fine writing, a beautiful song, or even just a really tastey dish of food, was that it ended up being something more than what the person who created it initially strived for or expected. Or a fancier way to say that is the works of art start to transcend the artist. Or, the artist is now channeling a greater creativity than even they necessarily understand, intend, or fully conceive of consciously. Now maybe that way of thinking about a craft isn't always true, but it sounds to me like you are on the right track, if your book is meeting or even exceeding what you were aiming at. So that sounds wonderful!
That first chapter was gripping!! Best of luck with publishing.